was supposed to go out with 2 guys todae.. i shall not mention hu dey are.. dey both promised me at 1st.. den later on 1 said he had work and drinking with boss de other i guess.. plain forgotten.. well i knw work and boss is more impt... i have nothing to sae.. but it really sets me thinkin.. anywayz we were supposed to meet to have dinner to celebrate my 21st bdae.. really.. this 21st bdae of mine has shown me how much i really meant to all my friends.. de onli person hu really cared bout how i feel is my bestie.. she's de onli 1 dat remembered.. dat asked me bout celebration and all.. wad bout my other frends? those dat i care about? those dat i alwayz rem their bdae and buy dem gifts and all.. all dey did was msg me happy birthdae.. some didnt even msg me happy birthdae.. not sae i gey gao... but it really shows how much i mean to dem... i really feel hurt.. b4 my bdae.. everyone's telling me 21st is impt.. celebrate and all.. but hu really asked me bout celebration? anyone really planned a celebration for me? no.. no one cept my bestie and my family.. dats why i love my bestie.. dats why i love my family.. i used to treat my other frends like another branch of family.. i treated dem sincerely with all my heart... but dey dun even rem my bdae.. it's just nothing to dem.. i'm just a fool.. i alwayz believe how u want ppl to treat u.. treat dem de same... but i nv gotten back how i treat others.. i nv got de same sincereity and heart back from those ppl i used to love... i used to love these frends more den my own real family.. i loved these ppl with all my heart.. whenever dey wanted anything from me.. i tried my best to do it for dem.. i nv said no to dem.. but this is how dey forget me.. i'm just insignificant to dem.. even my classmate of less den 6 mths show she cared by getting me a gift with much thought.. i'm just truly disappointed.. i'm just so stupid.. i'm tearing as i'm typing this... dats cuz i still care bout those ppl.. and i care wad dey think about me.. but maybe dey just think nothing of me.. i'm tired already.. nv ask for anything when u give... but what about alwayz giving and getting nothing at all... i'm just human.. i get tired from all these too.. i dun wanna be miss goody 2 shoes anymore... cuz no 1 appreciates.. no 1 cares... my 21st bdae is my happiest and alwayz worst bdae... it's happiest cuz i spent it with my family.. ppl dat i've just learnt to love with my all... but worst cuz ppl dat i've loved for de past few years didnt care about it at all.. i've had enuff... i've seen and felt enuff... from now on.. i'm just gonna concentrate on ppl hu truly loves me.. dat includes my real family and my bestie(and her other half- dey are really really nice to me).. my family and my bestie are godsend.. dey are de best thing dat has happened to me.. i have no regrets being me.. cuz i have dem to love me.. after putting my love on de wrong ppl for de past 6 years.. i've finally learnt to love de right ppl.. and i wanna keep loving dem.. and i nv wanna lose these ppl.. i love dem..
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