i realise i've been more and more dependent on my medication.. last nite i forgot to take my medication and i didnt go to bed till ard 2? and even after dat.. the whole of last nite i couldnt slp.. but i guess dat aint really cuz of de medication.. i had something in my mind.. it was just so disturbing i couldnt go to slp.. been tossing and turning the whole nite... i knew very well i was dreaming but i couldnt pull myself out of de dream and i just kept tossing and turning the whole nite till this morning.. and now my eyes are puffy from all the crying.. tell me about fluctuating moods man.. my mood is like the shares.. or even worse.. i've hurt the people who love me the most.. i cannot forgive myself.. i love dem.. but i just keep doing terrible things to dem.. time and time again.. now even if they can forgive me.. i cant forgive myself.. i just canot forgive myself anymore..
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