been working thru the long weekend.. have been helping my aunt out at a booth at vivo city selling angel clay.. angel clay is this amazing soft and light clay thingy from korea... it's really fun to play with.. quite addictive once you start with it.. it's cute!
vivo city is just 3 levels but the area is really huge? but i really didnt walk ard de place for the weekend i was dere.. i was bz promoting my clay.. haha.. and the human traffic dere is so scary... dere were just tons of ppl ard.. saw quite a few ppl i knw dere... but i just didnt call out to any of dem.. dere was this guy i had a crush on while i was in SIM.. den dere was this ger serene whom i knew from my sec sch daes... den dere's this ger from my pri sch... and another ger from my sec sch.. she actually called me.. but i just acted like i wasnt me.. sorry but no. 1 when i'm working i really dun like to be distracted.. and no. 2 sec sch was bad memory for me.. just nothing good came out of sec sch daes..
heard from ms b dat wad i said bout her friend came true... den i realise how scary it is to be like me.. believe me.. it's not a good character.. it's a weak character easily swayed by factors ard... i hate this aspect of myself.. i wish i could be a stronger person.. i hate being pushed ard by others.. i hate it when ppl dun take me seriously.. and i hate it when ppl are just so insensitive..
anywayz.. talked to my doc bout my prob.. the prob i've kept within myself for years.. doc wants to help but she has no time... so i'm gonna see another doc for theraphy... i duno how to sae this but.. it took me a lifetime of courage to open up to the matter and tell it to my doc.. and it took many sessions of consulting her and finally trusting her enuff to tell her.. now dat i'll be seeing another doc.. i duno if i'll be able to tell the new doc bout my prob... something just doesnt feel so right..
anywayz.. i'm suffering from a bad sorethroat and blocked nose... bought some lozenges to self treat... hopefully i'll recover soon enough... i shall go do some econs and write a letter i'm supposed to have written 2 mths ago... i shall stop procrastinating...
i have many regrets in life....
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