time check.. 8.08AM.. yea man.. itz early in de morning... woke up approximately an hour ago and i cant get back to slp.. came online but hey.. itz too early.. no ones ard yet.. so here i am.. been wanting to blog for a long time but i just couldnt find the time to sit down proper and type awae..
i've been thinking.. whenever i have the time i think of my past.. from an innocent lil ger to a sprawny kid to ware i m todae.. i'm amazed at how much i've changed.. i alwayz tot i wouldnt change... truth be told.. i'm afraid of changes.. and it scares me to know de drastic change i've been thru..
life is full of ups and downs.. but for me.. i've been quite a lucky ger.. i've have my family hu dotes on me and gave me everything i wanted as a kid.. when i grow older.. i have my friends hu dote on me.. thou at times i do meet terrible people.. but i alwayz believe dat dey are there to make me a stronger person and to show how much my family and friends really care..
the change i was toking about? aint bout de things around me.. but itz just me myself.. i was an active lil kid... inquisitive.. bubbly.. cheerful.. and i was really close to my family.. thou i cant remember clearly i strongly believe dat at dat pt of time.. i love my family loads.. as i grow a lil older.. in my teens.. i grew to be this rebellious kid... this total opposite of wad i was when i was younger.. i did all de things i shouldnt have done.. hurt all de person i shouldnt have hurt... lookin back.. i regret wad i've done.. but nothing can mend the hearts i've broken.. de hurt i've caused..
as time pass.. i grow older.. and more responsibilities are put on me.. together with more experiencing of life.. i came out of my rebellious self and hid myself in a shell.. knowing i've caused so much pain in others life is too much for me to take.. i decided to hide.. i put myself in a closet shut de doors up and i refuse to socialise with ppl.. i find it hard to laugh even.. i'm an unhappy person..
dats me.. my life.. but i believe dat everything happens for a reason.. thou i choose to hide.. but i after all.. i come out a stronger better person.. i just need more time..
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8:13 AM
