ytd uncle told me sth... love is giving and taking.. itz unconditional.. regardless of how much u take or how much u give... u would not feel unjust or anything if itz really love... if itz not.. u probably would feel any other way... dat sentence makes me think of my relationship.. not anyone elses' but mine... it doesnt seem to be dat way in my relationship...
i used to keep complainin bout being unappreciated.. my bf said he changed onli when i changed -_-! makes me wonder wad kinda relationship i'm in.. come to think of it.. i'm pretty disgusted... disgusted by wad kinda person i've become... (i shall go into my past in a lata entry) i din used to be like dis.. probably after all the things i've been thru.. society thought me to be selfish... so selfish i'm disgusted by myself...
something happened last nite dat i tot i wouldnt do.. but i did.. but itz probably a good thing.. it suddenly dawned on me dat... certain things are really not wad i think it is.. it really doesnt wrk dat way..
anywayz... i'm gonna start practising unconditional love.. until one dae probably i'll burst out and kill everyone.. nah... i'm gonna start dividing my love... i dun put all my money in 1 bank.. so neither am i going to put all my love on 1 person... probably dats de best thing for me.. dividing my love between all my loved ones..
i regret dat i haven known this earlier.. it would have saved me all my heartaches and all.. saved me everyone.. i wouldnt have looked like a total asshole...
thank you to my uncle my baobei and of cuz my best frend.. ppl hu were dere for me.. =]
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