dumb.. darling found out dat i was making sth for him for our 6th mth anni.. but at least he doesnt knw wad it is.. itz really nth much.. so dun expect too much.. stop thinkin helicopter figures.. aint gonna bi dat.. lol..
alrights.. been eating stingray for like de past 3 daes.. got scolded by my best frend.. apparently itz suppose to aggravate my condition.. and i din knw it! shessh.. no wonder i wasnt anyware near recovering.. haa.. gonna stop eating chicken and spicy food.. health comes 1st..
here comes de part bout me... heard lotsa comments bout me me me.. ok.. look.. i dun really care wad u ppl think bout me... or maybe sayin dun care aint right.. more like.. i'm affected by wad u sae.. but it aint gonna change me in any way... so.. yep..
num 1..
i'm proud of my body ok? alright.. u have ur so called WONDERFUL body.. like i care?! i might not have a face as pretty as urs.. i might not have a body as hot as urs... i might not even have a desirable character.. but at least... i have a loving bf... and i have my own identity to keep... instead of being a dumbass and resisting good food.. i go all de way and gorge myself out on good food.. at least i knw how to enjoy MY life... i'm living my life good.. so stop sayin anything to digust me further...
num 2..
stop injecting dumb values on me... NEVER.. and NEVER am i gonna think dat plain is good.. i go for elaborate stuffs in life.. yea yea yea.. another materialistic ger u sae.. hey look.. dun u wish for dat certain sth u wan but cant get? looks hus tokin man.. we're all de same... juz because my bf is willing to spend such money on me and urs is not.. doesnt make us any diff.. de onli difference is dat.. i hold it.. and u.. can onli THINK about it..
num 3..
stop sayin i'm a spoilt brat.. ok.. i do admit i'm one.. but stop askin me to change.. i love it dis way.. ppl showering love care and concern on me.. itz juz me... i'm a low esteem no self respect shit.. so i need ppl to constantly shower love and care and concern on me.. and when dat happens.. i become conceited.. so wad now.. u're unhappy.. because u aint getting enuff from those ppl u shld? so u sae we shld all grow up and learn to stand on our 2 own feet.. and i sae .. bullshit.. u're juz sayin dis because u're plain jealous.. well i do admit.. dere are ppl hu tell me dat and i do listen cause dey are de ppl dat DO shower me with care and concern.. and cuz dey are truly concerned.. so if u ppl haven been really understandin me.. fuck off and stop sayin shits like dat... cuz u dun even knw me!
num 4..
stop telling me how bad my past is.. FUCK u ppl.. i knw my past sux.. i was an ass.. am still an ass.. but no longer AS dumb.. stil dumb.. not DAT dumb... so stop dwelling on my dumb past.. dun sae things bout my ex bfS.. dun sae things bout me being ah lian.. dun sae things bout my bad academic past.. because.. fuck.. itz been so long ago.. i hate ppl who dig up my past... i've been desperately tryin to run awae from my fucking u-think-itz-so-funny-but-i-detest-it past... stop tryin to pry open my old wounds.. i'm as hurt as i can bi.. stop all de shits u ppl are doing to me.. plz.. i'm fucking hurt enuff.. plz..
ok..de above 4 points.. are in NO way pointing at any ppl.. itz juz at diff times of de past year or so.. ppl have told me stuff like dat b4.. and i was doing some thinkin todae.. and i decided to pen it dwn.. well.. probably most of dem do not have my blog pass.. but oh well.. dis blog ish kinda like a diary too.. i can probably look at archives later in my life and either have a good laff at it or continue to get pissed by de prob..
anywayz... i like my new blog pw.. like it or not.. ppl hu wan to read my blog have to type it.. it makes ME feel good at least.. haa.. so.. sorry my dear jeri.. u'll have to make do with woaini .. itz all de same pw for everyone.. so everyone has to sae woaini.. not onli u =D
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