i'm moody.. upset.. i duno y.. thought bout lotsa stuff these few daes.. especially r/s... hey.. dere's no prob with my r/s i think... i duno.. maybe itz juz me.. maybe itz juz de ultra sensitive me sinkin in.. everyone knws dat guys are an insensitive lot... maybe dey are.. or are dey juz fakin it? haa.. i duno.. i've been with my bf for like abit more den a mth and we're like meetin almost every single dae.. we're like alwayz together.. maybe we're so used to it dat it becomes a routine of our lifes.. question being.. do u need me cuz u love me? or do u love me cuz u need me? there's a great difference between de two.. ok.. call me extra super sensitive... he used to open de car door for me everytime.. now it becomes.. not everytime.. well.. it doesnt matter if dere's someone to open de door for me.. but i hate it when de thought of de sentence "when i dun open de car door for u.. dats when i dun love u anymore" comes to my mind.. i used to alwayz see this beam of happiness on his face whenever we're together.. somehow or rather.. i dun see it anymore.. maybe itz juz tiredness.. maybe.. itz not... as time goes.. i somehow or rather feel his love for me fading away until sometimes i cant even feel it at all.. or maybe itz cause i'm loving him more? i knw he cares.. i knw he's concerned.. but he's juz like everyone else now.. used to de sickly lil me.. too used to it he cant be bothered.. maybe itz juz cause i'm feeling dis way.. dat made me bite at him all de time.. i seriously dun wan to.. but itz juz my way of protecting myself.. to shun away from everyone else.. but i juz cant help running back to him.. hugging him... i dun knw wad.. i dun knw why... i guess i'm juz hopelessly in love... why m i blogging it down? maybe cuz i wan him to knw how i feel.. but i juz make myself sae it out.. and maybe cause i juz wanna rant.. i duno.. i juz hate it when i'm like dat..
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