i've been feeling moody recently.. itz a really weird feeling.. hey! i'm not having some dumb pms ok? i've been feeling rather sick and de gimme a gun and i'll juz shoot u kinda feeling.. feel as if everyone has been stepping on my tail.. i might seem strong.. put on a strong front and all.. but seriously.. all these are juz to hide how i feel? lol.. seriously.. i got NO idea y i m writting dis here.. maybe cuz i cant find someone to tok to @ de moment and i juz wanna let it all out? all these while beneath de happy-go-lucky smily face.. i've been enduring and controlling my emotions so as not to cry.. but sometimes i feel so cold inside of me i juz duno wad to do... as i'm bloggin dis.. i'm really trying hard to hold back my tears... i've got a paper tml but i'm juz feeling so f*cked up i cant get anything up my head.. i wanted to juz get de paper over and done with and come home and lock myself up.. and de blardee econs lecturer announces dat dere's extra lecture.. wads wrong with him man.. after lecture i still gotta make my way down to orchard to buy a sth for de gift exchange thingy.. shessh.. anella bought everyone a xmas pressie.. itz really really sweet of her.. but i'm still feeling sucky... i wish dis feelin would juz go awae.. i dun wanna feel dis way.. but i really cant help it.. maybe i'm askin for too muCh.. i duno.. i juz wanna get out now.. but i cant... i'm screaming inside of me... it feels so bad i feel like killin myself.. y is dere alwayz no 1 ard when i need dem de most...
-Lord.. send me an angel.. a guardian angel.. or juz take me awae with u-
ingenue
10:54 PM
